today was a lazy sunday. though i woke up 4.30am due to a currently very messed up body clock courtesy of my work, i napped for 3 hours after i ate my breakfast. the only excitement was the concert later tonight which ironically, i never got to my opinion at least, the proper excitement it was due. again because of work. perhaps my body felt the blasphemy of my treatment of the upcoming event that it decided to overload me with all that i had missed.
as soon as cy and i got seated along with den, angel, she, jeric, lheng and estre, i was shaking with excitement. giddy in fact. they say that some things are only as good as the wait. the concert however, was beyond that adage.
they played 18 songs in all. yes i counted and i find no eccentricity in that. actually, i even took a mental note of the number of songs i particularly liked. songs 4-10, 13 and 16-18. sadly, i'm unable to recall the titles of the song in the order they were played. my absolute favorite was 16.
i counted 15 when the band left the stage and the lights went out. the crew was invading the stage, taking mike's guitar, taking brandon's micrphone stand... apparently at 15 songs, the concert was over. it only took an hour and 15 mins. i was disappointed. for Php3,360 i had expected it at least to be an hour and 30 mins long and i had hoped that they would play summer romance or stellar. although it was a tour that promoted light grenades, the two afformentioned songs are popular enough to be included in the gig list. apparently, Php3,360 fell short and the two weren't as popular as i thought. evidently, i wasn't the only one who was deep in my dissatisfaction. the crowd was starting to shout 'more'.
5 mins after the band left the stage, i was struck dumb with disbelief that the 5 who created most of the music in my playlist was reentering the stage. when i heard the first few notes, i recognized it unmistakably. even now, i could not find the words to describe the torrent of emotions i felt upon recognition of the song - stellar, the song that started it all for me and cy both. it was too much for me to feel all at once: the reentry, dramatic as if it were out of a movie script, the song uncannily selected as if by a divine hand and the serendipity of it all happening with cy beside me. by the time the first line of the song was sung, i was in tears. my heart was the biggest it has ever been as if it inflated itself 5 times its normal size. it was so big that i felt it in my chest. so big that i was conscious of its presence within me. i glanced to my right and i realized that the reason why i was aglow with the richness of what i felt was standing right beside me, listening to the same song i was hearing looking at me and harboring a silent, secret smile.
i was crying through the rest of the song. which is weird since i'm really not much of a cry-er. but i now believe that it is possible to be in tears in moments when you are in exquisite bliss. how should i describe it? empyrean perhaps, for it is higher than any notion of heaven i have ever been taught in sunday school. i was blissed out. so much, that it is beyond all telling. i can mark yet another item in my life's to do list. to be moved to tears out of sheer happiness.