2 years

cy,

here's to two wonderful years and a lifetime more.

you are stellar!

-rese
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Sonnet XVII

I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

In a standstill

my mind is someplace else. at least that's one certainty at the moment. the foreground blends all too well into the background that i don't have to blame my usual, selective dyslexia at incomprehension. my mom's come over to visit. and the feeling of accompanying her to wherever she fancies is so strong that it makes my guilt at having to be in ccna training all the more blatant. preferrably, i would have stayed at home and studied on my own. there is nothing worthwhile in the lectures anyway. everything i need to know is found elsewhere, in the book they gave us to use for training, in the interactive web material i downloaded off their site and when all else fails, i have only to type google or wikipedia on my browser and all's well again. thus far, i have been keeping my module exams straight 100s, so i'm sure that i can manage. the only thing worth coming to ust for, are the laboratory sessions. unfortunately, the uninviting laboratory has all the equipment that could put all the theories i have learned so far to work.

but my rant of course, downplays the fact that i miss home. and mama being here magnifies that fact to a point where it robs all competence, drive and focus in me to finish this training.

i had initially planned to fly home for the holidays but the training got move so that it ends on the 31st of october so i had to scratch my intended vacation dates off my starbucks planner. it didn't bother me then but giving that a second look, i'm surprised i had the courage to cross the dates off. what in the world was i thinking? i couldn't be any more melancholic.

i'm signing off this post with a quote..

Mid pleasures and palaces though we may roam,
Be it ever so humble, there's no place like home.
-John Howard Payne (1791 - 1852)

so far, so good

i haven't studied and crammed like this since college. a week done and a week more to go. here's a screen capture of my gradebook for ccna1 (click on the image to view a larger one). like i said; so far, so good. hope i do as good or better at ccna2.

a rather hasty update

So obviously, I've been veeeery busy. How busy? Not to be able to post re my bday kind of busy which means i'm basically booked till 2008 cause my bday was soooooo blogworthy (thanks of course to my dear dear cy). My CCNA training starts next week which means more unmanageable stuff for me to try to get through alive. Anyway, enough of my whining. Here is the 411 on my latest developments:

projects (all in UPStrat):
1. Mira - nth iteration
2. Ledgit - closed beta
3. manilaeats - first iteration
4. Hedgehog - zero feature iteration, yet to make concept

school:
1. CCNA1 and CCNA2 Instructor Fast track training at UST - this is basically Cisco Networking stuff. Oct 16-31 ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
2. Basicon - midterms on tom
3. Netopsy - project spects to be given out tom in preparation for my 2 week absence due to item 1 under school (OB of course)
4. MS - after this term, my 75% discount on my MS tuition kicks in. To start my MS next term or not to start?
5. BIR project - prototype up. process side is still screwed thanks to the indecisiveness of the BIR peeps. Every time we set up a meeting, it becomes nothing but a whining session/character assisination/political bickering. Which translates to a 3 hour meeting worth only 30 mins of information that will help us move on with the project.

personal:
1. still have to make cy's surprise in time for his bday which falls on a CCNA training day T_T
2. yet to make cy's surprise for our anniv which is 19 days away and falls on the last day of the CCNA training (dammit)
3. yet to have a massage, hot oil, pedicure and manicure and my eyebrows threaded
4. yet to finish reading making and breaking the grid
5. spanish class: have to catch up
6. violin lessons start as soon as CCNA training is done (free thanks to sir raffy! ^^)
7. still have to dress up researes.com which cy bought for my bday as a surprise
8. still have to port blogs to researes.com and develop back end functionality

dota:
1. last hero used: furion
2. last game played, last night (tsk tsk tsk)
3. until CCNA is done, my dota playing days will be on leave

So if my blog remains unupdated for the next couple of weeks, don't be surprised. Try to contact me though if it still is in 2 months. Maybe you'll find my corpse in UST. In case you do, please don't forget to put in my tombstone 'Died in CCNA training. Damn you Cisco.'

Thanks.