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Friday, October 30, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
~ oracion seis
my prayer...
i feel that the day when i'll finally be able to forgive myself, will never come
i feel that the day when i'll finally be able to forgive myself, will never come
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
unaffected
you were my eleanor. but now that i've figured you out and just what it is exactly that binds me to you, i am left demystified. my disappointment and apparent relief leaves something to be desired.
now i am not as blinded as i once was, by the red hot summer sun.
farewell my eleanor, my pegasus, my unicorn. i am moving on finally to more real matters.
~
the chase has left me breathless and exhilarated. and now, i am finally turning away from you. towards gravity and the ground.
now i am not as blinded as i once was, by the red hot summer sun.
farewell my eleanor, my pegasus, my unicorn. i am moving on finally to more real matters.
~
the chase has left me breathless and exhilarated. and now, i am finally turning away from you. towards gravity and the ground.
Monday, July 27, 2009
i've always wanted to write a story or a novel before i died. in fact, it's on my bucket list. whether it gets published later on or remains hidden from the public, carefully tucked away beneath the pages of one of my journals is a non-issue. what is of import is that i did get to write it.
i've had the notion of calling it "songs about jane". something about a whole trimester's worth of listening only to maroon5's first album which was named as such, the coincidence of my messenger id being maryjane_doe11 of which during that time became a a medium of life-turning series of conversations. true to form, i'm thinking of naming each chapter after a song in the album. of course, it goes without saying that the tone of the chapter would more or less have some sort of pun or relation to the title of the song. symmetry and all that.
well, that has been the plan.
a friend of mine writes better when he's drunk. inspiration in a bottle and calories to boot. how convenient. how i wish i had something of the sort.
i've had the notion of calling it "songs about jane". something about a whole trimester's worth of listening only to maroon5's first album which was named as such, the coincidence of my messenger id being maryjane_doe11 of which during that time became a a medium of life-turning series of conversations. true to form, i'm thinking of naming each chapter after a song in the album. of course, it goes without saying that the tone of the chapter would more or less have some sort of pun or relation to the title of the song. symmetry and all that.
well, that has been the plan.
a friend of mine writes better when he's drunk. inspiration in a bottle and calories to boot. how convenient. how i wish i had something of the sort.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
impossible
You. Him. Her. Them. They. The absence of Us. All of that does not matter because in truth, there is only I. I am the only that truly matters.
1 or I what is the difference? Anything unattempted remains impossible.
1 or I what is the difference? Anything unattempted remains impossible.
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
time lapse
and now the clock ticks for me again and the hiatus is broken (and i hope, done). something as simple as cleaning the bedroom and rearranging the furniture does that sometimes. now that my mind is free of clutter and everything is in order. each in their own carefully labelled, lidded box. i trudge on through life or something like it just as i see it through rose tinted glasses.
Monday, January 19, 2009
a myriad of little things ~
So I came back to Manila feeling refreshed and as put by my IM status has been for the past few days - ready to rock, after a good, long, and well deserved return to Bacolod and being a Negrense for the Christmas holidays. The 13 days did me good. One, they gave me time to think about heavier things - a luxury which I didn't have much of since the busy days of work started after college and two, they gave me a time to enjoy the rewards of all my 2008's hard work. My reflection of how my year turned out gave me much gratification and furthered itself new goals - personal, professional and financial - for the new year, written as to double the resolve on my black notebook. Needless to say, 2009 came and I had adequately prepared myself.
~
The proverbial Jack of all trades. Well you may not know it but I am the Jill of all trades (Jack-Jill, John-Jane).
For those who knew me in HS, remember that 'Versatility Award' during our Tribute? I got that one. Something about me being an Honor Student, an Athlete on and off Nopscea season, an Editor-in-Chief of the school paper, a Dancer, a Thespian, an Orator, and a Prose Writer who won in Province-wide contests. Looking back, I am amazed myself how I was able to pull it off and realized that I didn't 'pull it off', there was no extra effort on my part to be all of those. I just was. It was just who I was. I never even gave it much thought back then.
Strange, but when I grew up, I started having notions that people can't, shouldn't be good at a lot of things. This notion, however and wherever I got it, I somehow brought with me to work. And for the longest time I have been cutting myself up on the fact that I am not a specialist like most people. Luckily for me, a talk with Jay over coffee sorted it all out for me. He assured me that there is nothing wrong with not being a specialist. Some people are just specialists. Some people just aren't. And I didn't have to feel bad because I wasn't a specialist or force myself to be one. And as if to prove his point further, me gave me a new post to man for 2009. A management post which I have no idea or background on, to execute side by side my current role. Oh man. I am both excited and nervous.
It's funny that I got an award for being all those back then and even more how I lost confidence in myself when I grew up because of that. Perhaps I should bring that award with me here to Manila just to remind me that it's fine to be someone who was good at a lot of things.
~
It's OK to be addicted to your work if you love your work. My friends always tell me how a square I am for not coming with them to eat after training. How boring I am because I have to get back to work after training. I know they understand. I love what I do. I'm sorry if some people don't. :)
~
The thing with plans and goals and resolutions is that the most people don't have enough conviction in them to follow through. One, make your PGRs realistic. No point in making a stretched one if it only prevents you from doing it. Two don't try to include everything in one year. Sure you may have a lot to work on but keep your list manageable so you can manage your expectations (something I learned from management stuff). There's always next year for the not so important ones.
~
One of the biggest blessings I had for 2008 was friends. It's probably the year where I made a lot of girl-friends as opposed to the usual guy-friends. For those who don't know me, I had trust issues with most girls in my HS and the fact that I'm the unica hija of the family doesn't help either. The thing is, with guys, you can level off and then it's back to being friends again. Issue confronted, issue resolved. That's the end of it. With girls, it's much more trickier. Issue confronted, issue resolved (behind your back that is). So I ended up with more guy-friends than girl-friends during college and work. That is, until 2008.
As a epilogue to this however, they last few months of the year brought to me- almost as if in irony- a living, talking, touching and whining reminder of why my instincts led me to stick to guys than girls 9 out of 10 times.
~
One of small wisdoms I had acquired over 2008 was this. If you love to shop and you love to shop for brands even more like I do, then the best months to spend and stock and build your wardrobe are on January, June and July. These months signal the end of seasons and the sale lasts for a whole month. Of course, if you find an item you want so badly to purchase but think that they have enough stock of it, you can wait around for a sale. If you think the stocks won't last, then buy it if you really, really, really want it. So far, I have bought: two 9 West shoes (and I'm eyeing a third one), 4 blouses, 2 shirts, 1 Zara coat, 1 sports bra, 1 bra and restocked my HPC stuff. All items were branded but all of them were on sale. Same quality, less damage on my finances. I swear I get a natural high everytime I find good buys. Happy shopping!
~
The proverbial Jack of all trades. Well you may not know it but I am the Jill of all trades (Jack-Jill, John-Jane).
For those who knew me in HS, remember that 'Versatility Award' during our Tribute? I got that one. Something about me being an Honor Student, an Athlete on and off Nopscea season, an Editor-in-Chief of the school paper, a Dancer, a Thespian, an Orator, and a Prose Writer who won in Province-wide contests. Looking back, I am amazed myself how I was able to pull it off and realized that I didn't 'pull it off', there was no extra effort on my part to be all of those. I just was. It was just who I was. I never even gave it much thought back then.
Strange, but when I grew up, I started having notions that people can't, shouldn't be good at a lot of things. This notion, however and wherever I got it, I somehow brought with me to work. And for the longest time I have been cutting myself up on the fact that I am not a specialist like most people. Luckily for me, a talk with Jay over coffee sorted it all out for me. He assured me that there is nothing wrong with not being a specialist. Some people are just specialists. Some people just aren't. And I didn't have to feel bad because I wasn't a specialist or force myself to be one. And as if to prove his point further, me gave me a new post to man for 2009. A management post which I have no idea or background on, to execute side by side my current role. Oh man. I am both excited and nervous.
It's funny that I got an award for being all those back then and even more how I lost confidence in myself when I grew up because of that. Perhaps I should bring that award with me here to Manila just to remind me that it's fine to be someone who was good at a lot of things.
~
It's OK to be addicted to your work if you love your work. My friends always tell me how a square I am for not coming with them to eat after training. How boring I am because I have to get back to work after training. I know they understand. I love what I do. I'm sorry if some people don't. :)
~
The thing with plans and goals and resolutions is that the most people don't have enough conviction in them to follow through. One, make your PGRs realistic. No point in making a stretched one if it only prevents you from doing it. Two don't try to include everything in one year. Sure you may have a lot to work on but keep your list manageable so you can manage your expectations (something I learned from management stuff). There's always next year for the not so important ones.
~
One of the biggest blessings I had for 2008 was friends. It's probably the year where I made a lot of girl-friends as opposed to the usual guy-friends. For those who don't know me, I had trust issues with most girls in my HS and the fact that I'm the unica hija of the family doesn't help either. The thing is, with guys, you can level off and then it's back to being friends again. Issue confronted, issue resolved. That's the end of it. With girls, it's much more trickier. Issue confronted, issue resolved (behind your back that is). So I ended up with more guy-friends than girl-friends during college and work. That is, until 2008.
As a epilogue to this however, they last few months of the year brought to me- almost as if in irony- a living, talking, touching and whining reminder of why my instincts led me to stick to guys than girls 9 out of 10 times.
~
One of small wisdoms I had acquired over 2008 was this. If you love to shop and you love to shop for brands even more like I do, then the best months to spend and stock and build your wardrobe are on January, June and July. These months signal the end of seasons and the sale lasts for a whole month. Of course, if you find an item you want so badly to purchase but think that they have enough stock of it, you can wait around for a sale. If you think the stocks won't last, then buy it if you really, really, really want it. So far, I have bought: two 9 West shoes (and I'm eyeing a third one), 4 blouses, 2 shirts, 1 Zara coat, 1 sports bra, 1 bra and restocked my HPC stuff. All items were branded but all of them were on sale. Same quality, less damage on my finances. I swear I get a natural high everytime I find good buys. Happy shopping!
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
The year that was
I spent the last few days of 2008 in the room that I have been missing ever since I moved out of it during college, thinking about a lot of things. Things that happened, things that are, things that will be and things that I hope to be. Although I have listed a few goals that I want to achieve over the course of 2009, this post is more of 2008 rather than of 2009.
Admittedly, 2008 was one of the busiest years I have ever had. Although laziness and procrastination in part have taken their big role in my relatively less than frequent posts over the year, it is still very much the fact that I had a lot of things to do and little time to do them that explains largely my lack of blogging enthusiasm. Listed, the highlights of my year fall short (I may have overlooked and forgot a couple or three... or four), I guess these are the ones that matter most:
Dec 2007 - Jan 2008 New Year at the Davids
Jan 2nd Tiffany&Co. Purchase
Mar Incubus Light Grenades Concert
Apr Holy Week at Bantayan Island, Cebu
Aug Assigned a Managerial Role in Recomed
Aug Recomed Office at Two Serendra
Sep Passed CCNA Certification
Sep 25th Bday Celebration
Sep 1st Camera Purchase, Nikon D40
Oct 4th Year Anniversary
Oct 2nd Real Estate Purchase, Rockwell's the Grove
Dec Finished the coursework of my Masteral
Dec 3rd Year Anniversary of Being a DLSU Faculty
Dec Granted 10 Years Multiple Entry US Visa
Dec Tagaytay Trip and Hobie Cat Sailing
Dec Reunions, reunions, reunions!
Dec Spending the Holidays at Bacolod
2008 was also a year where I made a lot of friends, both male and female, so I'm really proud and happy because of that. There's a lot to be thankful for and I am. :)
Admittedly, 2008 was one of the busiest years I have ever had. Although laziness and procrastination in part have taken their big role in my relatively less than frequent posts over the year, it is still very much the fact that I had a lot of things to do and little time to do them that explains largely my lack of blogging enthusiasm. Listed, the highlights of my year fall short (I may have overlooked and forgot a couple or three... or four), I guess these are the ones that matter most:
Dec 2007 - Jan 2008 New Year at the Davids
Jan 2nd Tiffany&Co. Purchase
Mar Incubus Light Grenades Concert
Apr Holy Week at Bantayan Island, Cebu
Aug Assigned a Managerial Role in Recomed
Aug Recomed Office at Two Serendra
Sep Passed CCNA Certification
Sep 25th Bday Celebration
Sep 1st Camera Purchase, Nikon D40
Oct 4th Year Anniversary
Oct 2nd Real Estate Purchase, Rockwell's the Grove
Dec Finished the coursework of my Masteral
Dec 3rd Year Anniversary of Being a DLSU Faculty
Dec Granted 10 Years Multiple Entry US Visa
Dec Tagaytay Trip and Hobie Cat Sailing
Dec Reunions, reunions, reunions!
Dec Spending the Holidays at Bacolod
2008 was also a year where I made a lot of friends, both male and female, so I'm really proud and happy because of that. There's a lot to be thankful for and I am. :)
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