this is really a post for all those who waited and those who are still waiting in their distress. knowingly or unknowingly.
on a ym conversation with kyle, i got to think about time and decisions. about how some things never happen despite how badly you want them to. and i surprised myself to an extent over my understanding of the matter. put down categorically, either things happen or they dont. in the event that they do happen they fall into one of three categories: (1)things that happen so fast that you don't know they did unless they're over, (2)things that happen and you're conscious of them happenning (3)things that happen when you least expect them to and my romantic favorite but also the one i dislike most logically and in all practicality (4)things that happen in their own time. this, i know is the one that is certainly worth its while.
we can only extend our influence so much as to try to make them happen. we can only to try to reduce the role of chance in a game that is in itself, chance anyway. we can be the catalyst, the instigator because we want to have a handle to some extent of control but we are never really assured of a reaction. we can only wait. we can only hope. with full knowledge that the chance of waiting and hoping in vain is just as possible as waiting for something certain. i guess at this point our faith and denial swings are understandable. more so if we are to wait for someone who could imagine a different ending and has the capacity to reduce or increase the role of chance as well. either to our gain or to our loss.
rese: some things take time
rese: i kind of understand that
rese: no matter how you want them to happen
rese: and despite the thngs you do to try to make it happen
rese: it wont unless it's will